You Are More

We all have secrets. Dark, haunting, shameful secrets. Secrets that we try to push us down. It's always in the back of our mind, reminding us of what we've done. Haunting us in our dreams. Making us shiver when thinking of everyone knowing.

      You feel shame and you feel depressed of what you have done. I've done awful things, just like you. Everyone has something that they want to keep hidden, something that haunts them. Something that makes them cry when they think of it. Some things destroy peoples lives.
 
    It tears them down, and they just lay there. They don't try to get up. And if they do, they can't make it. They push, and shove through the sin and shame. But it doesn't do anything. What you need is God. You might already have Him, but you don't feel forgiven. You still feel awful and sad.
       I felt like that for the absolute longest time. I had done something that made me sad and depressed. Something that my parents had forgiven me for, and God supposevly did too. But it didn't feel like it. It didn't feel like God had forgiven me. I still had this big weight baring down on my shoulders. I laid in bed, haunted by it.
   Then I asked God to forgive me. Really forgive me, and I blurted out my heart and feelings to Him. All in a sudden rush, just crying it all out. Just telling Him everything. When I was done, I sniffed a bit and it hit me. I felt His arms wrap around me, and the weight was just lifted. I was forgiven. I could actually feel it. Now, I look back on it in a lesson, and I know God has forgiven me.
  I had done some heavy duty reading the Bible, and I felt better.

   You are more then what you've done. Every little thing that you have done, has been forgiven. But first, you have to ask for it. You really have to ask for it, you have to mean it. Tell God what's in your heart, what you are feeling. He is up there listening. The best part is He actually understands. Like a best friend, he pats you on the back and understands.

       This isn't about what you have done. But that you are forgiven. These two videos below are amazing and touching. I cry each time I see them. The last one I have on my iPod, and I listen to it everyday!